Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Decided that I hated myself for how much peanut butter I ate today. So, I'm going to completely plan out my meal for tomorrow.

1 egg and a eggwhite
5 almonds
1 apple 
5 carrots
1 pear fruit cup
(if my parents make dinner, I'll pretend to eat it) 

I can do this? Right?
If I can manage tomorrow, then I'll try to continue this altogether pattern with minor changes each day!
(minus the pears because we are low on them :c) 

Things I will NEVER eat again:

peanut butter
any non-whole grain bread!
any fattening food! 
Stick-Thin Cyprus vs 70 mph winds = a tree nearly falling on my house.
Ate too much. No Avocado. Almost purged. Cried once. Power outage. No church. Homework Incomplete. 82 in Math. Played Pokemon. Didn't draw. 
What's new?


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Weighed in at 130 again (maintaining w00t!) and I felt like I had a good breakfast. Wanted to share...

1 egg and a egg white
2 strawberries
a few rolled oats from my granola
 5 almonds

That should last me until lunch without fail. Plus its full of dietary fiber and vitamin C! Yummy! Then I'll have my apple! 

Monday, March 28, 2011

I want to be invisable. Or at the least alone. Everytime I eat, there seems to be someone around. So, this morning, I was going to have one egg, but my dad urged two. So I put in two, but secretly hid the yolk of the second in the shell and threw it out. At lunch, I ate my apple as usual. Then, when I got home, three strawberries, then my friend urged a granola bar, which I ate, but picked all of the chocolate out... then my sister snapped at me to eat THREE peices of pizza. I argued one, she argeed, but I just pulled the cheese off, chewed it while I threw away the crust, then spit the cheese out in the sink. To ensure that I  ate it, I left some of the bits on my tongue and stuck it out at her. I felt disgusting... the taste is still in my mouth even after I tried to drown it with my spinach salad. Well, done eating for the day, hope I didn't gain. I, personally think that I am okay, but people keep commenting on my eating habits... All except my other good friend, who also suffers with a ED. I just want to be 120 by May 22. Unlikely, but then again, I lost 10 pounds last week... 
10 more to go. 

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Back. Feel like shit. I didn't eat too much yesterday, but did no excerise. Ate like a pig today, but also worked hard too. I don't know what the hell I'm doing anymore. I need to be thin.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Insomniatic. That's the best way to describe me right now. On the bright side, I'm headed off to the beach. Feeling good, but guilty... I've lost 10 pounds in a week. I think I'm 129 now, but im not sure...
Wish me luck.